PinnedWhen I’m Gone… (what I would want my loved ones to hear after death)You wont be able to hold me when I am gone, feel the warmth of my body against your own. Yet I hope when you feel the warmth of the desert sun, or the goosebumps from the chill of a rainstorm that you imagine I am with you, touching you…Death And Dying2 min readDeath And Dying2 min read
PinnedI hate being a Mom.When I was younger I would envision what it would be like to be a Mother. In my mind it was the most beautiful thing. I would have these little humans to love unconditionally. We would create all these beautiful memories. Even though I knew at times I would feel…Parenting3 min readParenting3 min read
May 8Anger Was Trying To Save MeAnger introduced herself to me. At first I reached out and held her tight. I let Anger rage through my small body when I felt wronged, or scared. They said that was being a brat. That I was throwing a fit. So Anger got me in trouble. …Emotional Intelligence2 min readEmotional Intelligence2 min read
Jun 2, 2022That Girl: to the person I was beforeThat girl is a stranger to me now. She is comfortable. She lives in a bubble with those who look like her, they think like her, they are apart of her being. She is careless. She does not examine the belief systems that were handed down to her from infancy…Healing From Trauma1 min readHealing From Trauma1 min read
Apr 6, 2022The little girl I used to be…The memory of the little girl I used to be is starting to become more difficult to recall What were her dreams exactly? Was she funny? She lives in another life that is now unreachable. The house with all the talking, the doting mother constantly getting something important done. …Reparent Inner Child1 min readReparent Inner Child1 min read
Feb 5, 2022My Life After Leaving ChristianityThe pastor is on the stage and everyone is listening intently as he talks about the purpose that the love of God brings to our life. “You are redeemed!” he says. “There is nothing you could do to seperate yourself from the love of God.” People clap, some nod along…Deconstructing2 min readDeconstructing2 min read
Jan 28, 2022Re-parenting myselfI look back on pieces of my childhood with longing. The ability to go back in time and have no responsibility, to just play with my younger sister. We used to play all day outside if we could. Running to the creek, playing make believe. We created so many worlds…Heal3 min readHeal3 min read
Jan 19, 2022What my first Migraine felt like: no its not like a headacheI was standing in the kitchen doing the dishes. One second I am scrubbing a pan the next my head feels like three knives had been stabbed through the bottom of my skull. I kneel down on the hard tile floor and push my hands against my temples. I close…Migraine Headache2 min readMigraine Headache2 min read
Jan 18, 2022A letter to my age: twenty-fiveDear twenty-five, what the fuck. As a young girl I looked forward to meeting you. I expected you would have finished an impeccable four years at school, and be starting a dream career. You would be confident, bold, vivacious, the life of the party. …Âge2 min readÂge2 min read
Dec 8, 2021A letter after losing my Mother to DementiaI saw you fighting the dementia. A part of you felt that if you ignored that it was actually happening then it would go away. I remember one time that you broke the facade that you were healthy in front of me. I was only twelve. You were sitting on…Dementia2 min readDementia2 min read
